What Do You Want? Reflection for 28 OCT 2018
One of the ways in which we open ourselves to the work of the Holy Spirit is to engage our imagination in the reading of Scripture. Today’s Gospel reading is one of the classic texts to read in this way. If you have never experienced Scripture in this way, I invite you to try!
I invite you to find a quiet space and some unhurried time. Read slowly through Mark 10:46-52 several times. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you into the story. Experience the sights and sounds, the excitement and emotions. View the events unfolding through the eyes of someone in the crowd or perhaps as one of the twelve.
Now pray to experience the story in the place of Bartimaeus.
Where in your life do you need that deep spiritual transformation that comes only when you abandon all restraint and cry out, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”
When Jesus responds and calls you to Him, what will you lay aside just as Bartimaeus put aside his cloak?
When you encounter the loving gaze of Christ and he says to you, “What do you want me to do for you?” Are you able to name your desire? Rest in knowing that desire for a moment.
As Jesus provides that wholeness and healing and transformation, how do you respond?
It is tempting to answer these questions too quickly, or to answer them with what we think the answer should be. I invite you to take time to let the Holy Spirit search you and bring forth the deep longings and wounds of your heart.
This is one of my personal favorite spiritual exercises and especially with this passage of Scripture. The process of naming my desire in the presence of a loving Savior brings comfort and clarity. However, I have never had the audacity to view the story through the eyes of Jesus. As I reflected on this passage this week, I realized that if the church is to be the hands and feet of Christ, perhaps we should seek to understand His view.